the ocean and the wave

the day does not belong to us, much as we want to possess the light, we are not responsible for anything beyond our sphere and though our sphere of influence extends outward in all directions forever we can only control so much. there are as many factors to influence as there are factors of feeling, of sense, in the world. even within our frames there are thousands of factors and they change without us knowing it. we're walking waves of change, expanding and collapsing on ourselves and each other, and pushing and pulling everything around us. waves originate from somewhere, we don't know; something to do with the moon and the sun and the rotation of the earth. aint that just how it goes, we don't know where we came from but we're going somewhere regardless. and we have no idea where. i wonder if the waves in the ocean think about that. then again the waves, to my eyes, look perfect: no grief or want or disappointment. and a wave is no more separate from the water than a mountain is separate from the ground; just extensions, protrusions, that are always in the process of growing up and coming back to the origin. so a wave cannot necessarily think of what it means in the grand scheme, because really the wave thinks with the same mind as the wave that just broke ahead or the forming wave behind, that is to say, the totality of water, one mind, one singular though unknowable purpose. i wonder if its like that with people, too. maybe it is, there's just not an easy metaphor to be made. i'm tempted to say because we are more "complex" than the waves in the ocean, but we're really not, we're molecular and random and orderly and chaotic and coincidentally here all the same as the ocean and her waves. its just that with all our "advances" in thinking we believe we can explain the purpose of the ocean, though we have no similarly simple explanation for ourselves and some individual or collective purpose. you go so far, only to realize you left something at home; you invent micronanotechnology and self-serving robotics, yet at the heart of it you're just seeking the meaning of simple things